**Edit**
Okay, put some of my gallery back up but keeping all the self portraits down.


Hey.

Today I emptied by gallery except for one deviation, "The Midnight Kiss" as that deviation is very special memories to me.

I'm not leaving dA but I won't be submitting any more art, or at the very least, not for a very long time.

As I said, I'm not leaving dA. This is where my Sam and I met and I don't think I will ever leave this place, but I will just concentrate more on the community and forums, rather than my own work.

To be honest, I feel like a rubbish photographer and digital artist. Heck, I feel like a rubbish person at the moment. I'm struggling with a lot of things right now. Sam is great, bless him and I appreciate everything he does for me, but I not only need his support and help, but I need professional help too. The problem is that the mental health team back where I came from said that I was a lost cause and there is no hope for me. Maybe there isn't. Who knows? Maybe I'm not even worth the help I need, but I know that if I don't get the help that I need eventually, then I will just keep spiralling like I have done before until even further damage has been done and I don't want that.

Things with Sam are going really well. I feel sorry for him having to put up with me to be honest. Borderline Personality is hard enough for the sufferer to deal with, but it must be horrendous for their love ones with the constant mood swings and fear of rejection.

Anyway, be kind to yourself.

Love to all.
xx